Scale success

1 small success got my scale! haven't stepped on it yet yeah right give me a break! Ha like i'm going to take that bullet today that is a success for yet another day.

Scale people vs non-scale people

I've made the decision to buy a scale. I've never been a scale person but I thought maybe it would help with the push and give me some drive, plus certain members of my family that would like to start working out are definitely scale people!
So off I go today to purchase a scale, today this will happen today!

Another Step in my movement for change

This is two stepper I would post pictures but I am utterly ashamed and type this with my head hanging low.
Step 1: I have a fairly large room in my basement that has successfully become the catch all for myself but also other members in my family. Now if it was catching and neatly organizing the "catch all" that wouldn't be so bad, but what started as a neatly organized storage area has now turned into the equivalent of a small junk pile, that once the door is closed I can uncomfortably ignore it. Ugh!
So what to do? Purge! Declutter! Organize!
My goal is to have this completed by Monday.
step 2: Once step 1 is completed I will continue to utilize 1/2 the room for storage because it is nice and convenient having it but I will commit to keeping it neatly organized, but I will utilize the other 1/2 for a workout room. Members of my family have also decided that they would like to join the endeavor to become healthier and fit. So between us we have all kinds of workout equipment and tools that would beneficial so I have volunteered my home as the new meeting place for workout equipment and people.

I have been talking and talking about starting to workout again yet each day goes by and still nothing. Guess I keep thinking motivation will just sneak up on me smack my bumm and ta-da instant inspiration! Sadly this is not happening so after giving myself a good talking to plus putting on a pair of jeans that well lets just say are not attractive at all, i've decided that YES most definitely I need to take a walk, do a sit-up, maybe some squats!
So there I said it i've committed out loud, verbally, in writing there's no going back, no putting it off any longer!
I CAN DO THIS!

Ayden turns 1 year old

Green Day

The 5th graders decided that since they would be on Spring Break for St. Patricks Day they did not want to miss the opportunity to celebrate so they decided to wear green and have a green day party. Unfortunately, you can't see the green nails polish and she hadn't donned her green jewelry yet.

Alena's version of the Hubble

Alena had to build a "space themed" container for Valentines Day and she decided she wanted to build the Hubble satellite and here is the finished product. I think she did pretty good. She even added a little bling to make it really her own and in the spirit of Valentines Day.

I love it.

I was at the Dr.s office with Paityn my granddaughter and Trina. Paityn's Dr. used to be Paul's and Alena's Dr. and now he is taking care of my grand-baby's. Anyhow, Dr. John comes in and we share hello's, the first question from him is "so how does it feel being grandma?" I just don't know that by saying the simple sentence "I love it" expresses enough how much I truly adore, love and cherish each moment I have with my grandchildren and how much I worship them. Hearing Paityn yell "grandma" when I she sees me or Ayden's little face lights up with a huge smile and he wobbles to me makes my heart leap. I get so excited and emotional when I get to see or hear about the things that they do, saying new words, taking first steps, getting a first haircut or doing a funny little dance. I truly believed that being a mom was the best thing and it is I love it, but this, this is so different a feeling that "I love it" only touches the outer edges of my emotions.

Taking a snooze

 

The two 5th grade classes at Alena's school decided that they wanted to raise money for Haiti. They decided to place a wager just to make it fun, so they bet that they losing teacher would have to eat mealworms. They started on Monday and it ended today and yeah they raised $1471.58 that will be sent to Haiti, and Alena's class won by over $20.
The teachers and staff also placed a bet against the students that they wouldn't raise more than $1,000, so those that bet against them will also have to eat mealworms.
Those little suckers are gross but they have two flavors to choose from BBQ or cheddar cheese.

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Ran away from home

Alena and I just packed up and ran away. Didn't go far or any where that we haven't been before so for some that might not be a great runaway experience. For me is was grounding and reminded me of just a few of the things that I love and and places that I miss.
I love the big open sky and tons of trees, the chance of seeing deers (yes in plural)walking across your backyard, not being able to see a neighbor right next door, and stars that flood the night sky.
It's not that I do not love the city I find it exciting and beautiful in it's own way. I love walking down a grounded city street and being surprised when you unexpectedly get a smile or a hello. When there's so much going on you just have no idea which direction to go and what to see first.
It is confusing but I would love to have the luxury of both and i'm going to try and figure out just how i'll get it.

I have decided that I have lost my goals and just simply do what I must do to survive each day. I've tried to think about what it is that I really love to do. Honestly and sadly I no longer know! Goal for this year remember what I like, love and enjoy doing. Discover me again.

2009

So I was uploading pictures from my camera and came to a sad realization and I began to ponder. I realized that 2009 was an even sadder year then 2008 for me and I want to honestly believe that I am going to make a change. In thinking about all that has happened I also want to believe that if I try just a bit harder I could have made a difference and had better outcomes.
As most of my friends know I was extremely sad to return to Kansas but I truly believed that if I stayed positive and focused it would all turn out alright and I would come to understand the reason behind the fate of my unfortunate return.
So here's my admission of guilt I have not stayed completely and totally focused all of the time. I have not stayed committed to staying positive and having a positive attitude.
Now what to do about it? Kick myself in the ass! Change my attitude! Remind myself that although I may not love it here I do love being close to my son and grandbabies that should count for something, right?
It is a new year and with that I will have new goals, new opportunities, new dreams and of course new failings to learn and grow from.
I will make time for myself I don't really know that I remember who I am any more.
Rediscover Me!

One of the pumpkins we grew

Paityn and Ayden

Ayden at the park

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Volleyball camp

I love to swing!

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Look at me!